Well I was up till 3:30am writing. I did not realize it was so late and i was very focused. Still have lots to do to get my first proposal draft ( chapters 1-3) into the Chair of my dissertation committee by end of the day Friday. It’s coming together though and I am treating the process with the utmost respect and care as it is a rebirthing paralleling my own human journey.
I am realizing this body of work is going to be very instrumental in how I outpicture in this world in the next leg of my journey after graduation and will continue to propel me forward. I think all of the wonderful comments and reassurance I received from the head of the PhD department and my dissertation Chair who is also Core faculty for the PhD program.as well as other programs has facilitated a great awareness and shift inside of me. . Yesterday during our PhD program checkin..the head of the PhD department said to me I remember the very first conversation I had with you when you connected with us. She remembers the story of how i was divinely led to Prescott. And at the time her response was thats how most students make their way here…She talked about how my work has been so impressive and it is very important and how your teachers at Prescott are now your colleagues. I said I am still unwinding from imposter syndrome and she said you have arrived and to just continue to take things in as there will be more. I mentioned how I have been trying to take everything in and not be distracted by myself or induce PhD perfectionism syndrome;) My Chair of my committee was just smiling the entire time as she knew I was beside myself.
I feel so supported. They will both see this post as they follow my page. There is so much to say here. ..I am just trying to process a great awareness that has come into my beingness all of a sudden. She said remember the conversation we had about you growing into your own shoes? I said yes.
I lay here this morning saying how did I get here surrounded by such Love and Support.. The head of the department spoke about the heart and mind connection..the essence of my work. My journey to Prescott was Divinely led in purpose. There was no other way for me to have made my journey here or to even be able attend for that matter..but all was in place..i just had to keep steppin and steppin I continue to be in awe with so much gratitirude.
I am very grateful for Dr. Emily Affolter ( PhD Program Director,) and Dr. Kimberly Greeson ( Chair of my Dissertation Committee and Core PhD Faculty) who continue to inspire me and now Dr. Lisa Trochia (Program Director Masters in Science in Food and Sustainability program) and I know that by the time I graduate I will have so much more to say..but for now,: just be present with me in my moment of awe Ness and gratitude..it is the energy which will propel me forward.
Here’s to another day of writing..
..now to get boogeying
